Contemplating Ramadhan

Words can't describe how happy I feel this year that Ramadhan has arrived. Previous years have been a bitter sweet affair, especially since my wife was away. It is always sad breaking fast away from family. Sweet that I also got to hang with my good friends and break fast with them. Most notably the first day was with P5 and Jimmy, both from the Nikon DSLR club.

I remember our simple fair, we bought milk, kurma from the office and some condiments. Dinner was later.

This year, the first four days I will be either breaking fast with friends or alone, no biggie there. Then off to Kuantan to break fast with my inlaws. Then on Monday it will be with my wife. Yes, she is finally coming home.

I pray and hope that this Ramadhan will be a Ramadhan for me to contemplate and improve myself, especially now that I finally will take up my responsibility as a husband. We have been away from each other for so long and have grown in our own right. That uniqueness in our relationship I do so wish to cherish and at the same time start to create beautiful memories together. There is so much that needs to be caught up on, though knowing me I will most likely find it most difficult to express how I feel verbally. Like Jason Mraz (tq MDah) I find solace in words in writing.


I also pray that Allah gives me the strength to change for the better and become a better person. If there is any time in our lives that we have a chance to change, Ramadhan is the best chance. During this time we are free from the whispers of Syaitan who will be locked up during the entire month. Our motivations will be our own, our sins will be our own, our darkness will be our own. So if we need to cleanse and purify ourselves, this is the time. As Picard says in First Contact, "The line must be drawn heeyah (here)!"

Luckily for me I have my wife to help me through this journey, my sisters, my father, my family and my friends.

So dear friends, please pray for us in our never ending journey to seek His blessings.

W'salam